Most days we just dont even think of all we can accomplish because we are just living life.. doing what we have to in order to keep it all together.
I have moments when I stop and think of this crazy life.
Living with 2 diabetics who need constant care and 2 other children who I worry get a lack of attention because of the necessity of attention to our diabetic kiddos.
Many late nights, worry, glucose checks, running up and down those stairs to get a juice box for one child, then checking the other and needing to go back down stairs to get insulin for a quick shot to fix a high, waiting 15 minutes for the one child who is low to get high enough to have a protein, then going back down to grab a Danimals, all at 2 am, lack of sleep, exhaustion and then what?
We get up in the morning, start a new day and move on.
Theres no talk about that rough night.. Just the sight of dark circles under my eyes, tired body and crazy hair lol. Who even has time to do their hair? Just throw it in a top bun and get on with it!
But I need you D moms to know that I get it. I know you're tired. I know you worry and I know the weight that you have on your shoulders.
Your kids may not see all you do, because they are half asleep.
Your spouse may not see it all because hes sleeping too (or at work in our case).
Your friends may not see it, or understand why you rarely see them. Why you have little time because you are running from school to school to drop off snacks, juice boxes and even insulin because your teenager forgot to fill his cartridge in the morning, running to the pharmacy to get insulin and supplies, fighting on the phone to get the supplies you need for your child to stay alive because the insurance just doesn't want to pay for 2 D kids, going to schools to teach new coaches, and teachers about your child's type 1 so they can be safe at practice. The advocating, fundraising, planning and serving you do. Your friends may not understand that you still need a friend, even if your life is busy and your kids have so many needs.
You may even feel like you've lost friends.
But I need you to know you are appreciated. You are needed. You are a freaking amazing D mom!
You rock those late nights and you work so hard to keep your child alive. Not only that but you do SO much, so that THEY can enjoy the little things that many kids don't have to think twice about. You are not alone in this.
So keep going. Don't give up and don't forget that you are strong, just like your D kids.
We focus a lot on the strength of our children, but remember, you are holding that strong kid up, helping them to build their strength so they can be independent.
I am so thankful for other D moms who have given care, support and advice. Its a great circle to be in!!
SO in the end, rock that messy hair and dark circles under your eyes! and remember that you are full of strength and love. Give your kids an extra hug today and just enjoy that moment. Then grab that meter and give them a lecture for not checking all day at school lol!!
