Day 87

Some days its like a never ending rollercoaster and we can get off...

Yesterday was one of those days...

We had a busy day ahead of us, an all day tournament for Craig.
It was over an hour drive there so I had to make sure we had everything we needed..

It started early in the morning.  Craig and madi had quite high numbers to start with...

By the time we were about half an hour into our drive, Madi got really tired..then whiny. I had Landon check her blood since I was driving on the freeway.

He yelled from the back of the van "Its 512!"

Me: " ya right Landon, what is it?"

Landon: "No really, it was!"

So I made him sanitize her hands and recheck again to see if maybe it was a mis reading... but the second reading was 486, so I had to pull over on the side of the freeway....

I got out and got her insulin from the cooler in the back,,the van was shaking as every car drove by...

I hurriedly gave her insulin to get her numbers down and gave her a water bottle as well... In about 15 minutes, she was loud and happy again..

Back on the freeway we went.... to finish our long drive to the tournament.. Craig checked himself when we got there and he was 386...

What the heck!!!

SO he got insulin and I pushed lots of fluids!!

DRINK WATER!!!

I had no ketone strips with us so we couldnt check either kiddo...

I knew Craig had to get his numbers down or I would have to tell him that he could not play...

I really want him to know he can still do the things he loves, but sometimes his body doesnt want to cooperate...and safety comes first...

By the time he was ready to play, he was down to 298..
Better, but not great....

He pitched first and let me tell you..It was SO painful to watch him.. He is a good ball player..And Im not just saying that because Im his mom.. He is dedicated to the game..tries his best, puts his whole heart into it, and is a smart player..
So when all he was throwing was balls, I knew he wasnt right...
After,  he said he was shaky a little.

 

It was so hard to watch him struggle, and knowing that Im the only one who knows that he is high....and that he was struggling because his body was not functioning right...

 and he had no control over it..

 It wasnt because he hadnt practiced, or wasnt trying.. Its hard to hear other parents comments when you know he is struggling on the mound..I was almost in tears..  ...a few times..
 I was just getting so emotional because I want his body to work "right"...for him to be able to just play like everyone else and not be affected by these "numbers"...Its just hard sometimes..

By the second game his numbers were much better and he was back in the game as short stop and second base..

Of course no one will play perfectly all the time, or ever, but knowing your child isnt doing their best because of type 1 is sad for me.. And Im not making excuses..I just know my child, and I know when he is off...

Madi was consistently high all day too, so we had to change a few calculations.. She had been in the high 200s and low 300s for a few days (I had been keeping a log once I saw a pattern)..

Well the tournament was over after a long day...

We were on our way home and a few of the kids fell asleep on the drive.. About 10 minutes before getting home, Madi woke up and started crying..she was crying for 5 minutes..
I thought it was probably because she had fallen asleep and woke up so she was irritated..

When we got home just a few minutes later, she started crying again and I found that she had an accident.. No worries, I told her to calm down, it was okay and we would get a quick shower..
My husband carried her upstairs while I got her seat cleaned out..She had a quick shower then started crying again..I though I should check her just to be sure..

he was 51....I got scared...and yelled to my husband downstairs to please bring up a juice fast, madi was low...

I was so upset..after such a long day and a crazy low..what if I had to give her Glucagon? What if she had a seizure? What if I put her to bed without checking?  There are a lot of worries...

So after an hour, she was back at a good number and ready for bed...

The day was long...lots of testing, high numbers, and a crazy low.....
It was a very emotional day for me..I was having a hard time with it all...My husband stayed home from work and I was SO thankful:)  After such a long day, I needed him home....

Sometimes diabetes feels like this rollercoaster that you cannot get off of.....Yesterday was one of those days!!